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bootcamp

2009-10-06T09:50:00.000+08:00

http://www.bootcamp.com.my/index.html

had my 1st session this morning... ALMOST DIED! kekeke
started at 7 ended at 8:10 give or take...it's a month long course, 3 times a week an hour each. doing this to keep myself in shape la! it's a lot of running( today was assessment) but will update as i go for the sessions. feel grogy cause haven't gotten up this early in a loooooong time, sleep around this time, yes!
check it out

3 years on...

2009-10-05T19:17:00.001+08:00

it's been 3 years since my last post...

what to blog about...

what has changed...

well for one, i'm 35 this year! 3 years wiser? looking more my age? well it's all relative. cause you're as old as you think/feel! and i feel fine!

i think i am wiser in the sense that we mature regardless of whether by choice or not...so then it can mean that i'm 3 years more mature but not any wiser?! kekeke

sorry. was just thinking aloud to myself...

still the same, still crazy about football, liverpool and alcohol(oh, that's my new hobby)

i'm president of an alcohol club(till they demoted me) and i am a football league organiser...

enough for now...

world cup...

2006-06-05T17:44:00.000+08:00

ya ya ya...
i know half the world are so into the world cup and the other half don't even care...
you need to understand the mechanics of football to understand why...
and even if you do...you might disagree strongly why men and some women behave differently during the world cup...
it's gotta be the passion cause without it...you'll NEVER enjoy the game...enjoy the level of skill shown...enjoy the outrageous hairdos(trust me on this)...enjoy the players...enjoy the fans(some who travelled from far)...all in all...it's the whole package.
hell...i'll even stop clubbing for the whole duration...
and really the expressions on the faces of the supporters are a sight to behold(at times it's really quite funny and at times it's really quite sad)...
you will see a lot of colours,fashion,funny banners,beautiful women(esp. latin ones)...but most of all it's all about the level of commitment and pride shown by the players out of respect for country and fans(there are some idiots la who spoils the game)
so before it actually starts...
go go go england(and screw rooney)

Don't walk behind me; I may not lead. Don't walk in front of me; I may not follow. Just walk beside me and be my friend.

2006-04-14T16:08:00.000+08:00

When I find myself fading, I close my eyes and realize my friends are my energy.

2006-04-14T15:51:00.000+08:00

blessed am i to have a few...
and i pray that i am the same to them as they are to me!

jaded-ism...

2006-04-10T17:41:00.000+08:00

interesting...
just read a blog about being jaded at 26...

hmmm...

i thinking...how jaded will a person be when they are 30 or 40 or 50?
i hear that life begins when you start to earn enough to pay the min for your credit card expenses...
so at 26, a bit early right?

26 should be primetime slot where you live life to the fullest and gradually tone down with age cause we don't sin less with age but we choose our sins more carefully... :P
experiences from our late uni days through our late twenties will or would have taught us a thing or two about the road we walk on called life.
isn't it ironic cause youth is really wasted on the young?

well they say that you are as young as you feel or as old as you think...
so jaded-ism is NOT applicable to those below 50 and even then you have a choice whether you wanna be jaded or not...
so jadey you're not allowed to be so...and when you're feeling like that again...call me lah...
the cure to jade-ism is...FRIENDS (who gives a s___!)

The best way to cheer yourself up is to try to cheer somebody else up.

2006-03-30T01:37:00.000+08:00

someone please start by cheering me!

Happiness is a choice...

2006-03-30T00:55:00.000+08:00

don't you agree?
we choose to be happy when there are times when we are not...
we choose to be positive when the going gets tough...
we choose to look on the good side of others when our nature is not...

let's choose not to be judgemental...
let's choose not to be critical...
let's choose not to be sad...
let's choose not to give up hope...
let's choose not to look down on others...

let's choose to be encouraging...
let's choose to be forgiving...
let's choose to be loving...
let's choose to be hopeful...
let's choose to be believing...
let's choose to be happy...

LET'S CHOOSE JESUS TO BE OUR LORD...
cause happiness is a choice.

It is one of the blessings of old friends that you can afford to be stupid with them

2006-03-28T15:27:00.000+08:00

how very true...
sometimes our behaviour are only understood by friends who has been with you thru it all...they may criticize it at times but only they can accept you for all your zany-ness and you accepting theirs
to all my homeys out there...you know who you are...
thank you so much...
GO BBM and GSH!!!!!

2006-03-28T02:11:00.000+08:00

the best player on the...the second best player on the planet

milestone day...

2006-03-28T00:27:00.000+08:00

it's my mother's birthday today...
and she's ...she's...she's ...old la...
better not reveal her age just in case she reads this and stop doing my laundry...

well besides being the love of my life (till i'm married) she's also the biggest ____ in my _____.
well it's true...she cooks for me...she does my laundry...she knows my closet better than me...she is my events manager(she reminds me of whose birthday is coming or anniversary or what's happening in church etc etc)...she's also my censorship board ie. which tvb series is worth watching or not...she's my dance partner(cause no one else will)...in short she's my number 1 fan...

happy birthday mum!!!!

i'll give you that kiss later :)

"Very funny, Scotty. Now beam down my clothes."

2006-03-28T00:20:00.000+08:00

Now if only everyone has a sense of humour...

human behaviour...

2006-03-27T01:33:00.000+08:00

Ever asked why some people behave the they do? And ever wonder why? What if the things they do affect you? Ever thought of telling them? Or rather leave things the way they are cause it won't make a difference anyway?
How do you handle the person or the situation?

The answer my friend is...........to each his own...

We can't control ourselves sometimes much less others...but that's the key...isn't it? Mind your own !@#$%^& business!!!!
Honestly, I don't need to take any crap from anybody and that being said nobody needs to take any crap from me!
What gives you the right? Seriously...do unto others what you want to be done to you...

And for those who still don't get it: Everyone is entitled to be stupid, but some abused the priviledge.

been some time...

2005-09-09T06:17:00.000+08:00

been home for the past 5 weeks...recuperating from a knee surgery which was quite an experience cause it was my 1st...from the time that i checked in till after i grogyly woke up to checking out of the hospital...hmm...it was pretty scary cause of stories and experiences that was told to me... shudder...some good and some not worth mentioning...
i must admit that my doctor and his team really made me felt comfortable and secure cause 5 mins before they wheeled me in---i had to use the loo...my head was a little heavy due to the tablets i took earlier and an attendant had to hold and lead me...let's not go into too much details...
undergoing physio for my knee and let me tell you that i no longer dislike auditors...no.1 on my hate officially goes to physiotherapists...heartless,emotionless and slavemaster...no regards for pain...these are the people who founded the phrase...no pain,no gain...
many thanks to those who came to visit...you know who you are...brought my spirits up y'all...
staying at home hasn't been fun and it's really tiring cause you exhaust yourself thinking about how to feel up your time...
well anyway...my MCs are comng to an end in about a week and hopefully i can drive and walk without help...can't wait to get back to playing soccer...

2005-08-26T03:40:00.000+08:00

time is everything...

2005-07-06T02:30:00.000+08:00

timing is everything...
it's not like we are always unlucky...it's more likely that we have bad timing...and even if it's a surefire thing...timing either makes or breaks it...
the best part of it is that not all of us have good timing and even if we do...there are always days whereby we are off...
the suck part of it is that when we are off...the consequences are really bad...
and i believe that everyone of us has experiences that we would like to forget...
i have got no solution just questions...how do we prevent bad timing?is it an acquired gift...our genes or an ability that we can do without?
do we do it purposely or it's really just a test from God?
so...how's your timing lately?

have you ever...

2005-07-03T03:48:00.000+08:00

have you ever felt so low that the lowest thing that you can think of can't be lower than you?
have you ever felt so bad that the worst thing that has happened to you seem like child's play?
have you ever felt so useless that whatever you do just seem like a waste of time?
have you ever felt so insignificant that even if you're gone, no one will notice?
have you ever felt so much depression that you can't depress anymore?
have you ever felt so angry with yourself that you can't believe how stupid you actually are?
have you ever felt so much emptiness that even a black hole is like nothing in comparision?
have you ever felt so dumb that even Harry and Lloyd looks smarter than you?
lastly...
have you ever ever ever felt so pissed with yourself that 2 bottles of valium ought to do the trick?
WELCOME TO MY LIFE

baton passed to me...

2005-06-14T00:07:00.000+08:00

total volume of music files on my computer..

1 GIG...(more or less)

the last cd that i bought..

RNBHIPHOP...ss2 pasar malam

song playing right now..

californian dreams...mamas and the papas

five songs i listen to a lot, or that mean a lot to me..

HOOBASTANK: the reason
EVANESENCE: immortal
EVANESENCE: bring me back to life
HIKARU UTADA: first love
BRUCE SPRINGSTEEN: secret garden

five person to whom i am passing the baton..

weng kit (ffk king)
jessica
jes min
su
cheryl lim
(cause i know that they'll be reading this)

mental block

2005-06-13T15:47:00.000+08:00

sigh...am having a mental block for the past week...and nothing seems important anymore...and i mean nothing...don't feel like talking to friends and am gong thru the motions in my life with no real zest...
it's like 3:50 pm and i've just finished a bottle of shiraz...
think i have lost my focus somewhere...
well the most interesting thing that happened to me was last weekend
i joined a salsa class(a new one) last saturday...it was cool though
my instructor's name is sam aka salsa sam...funny right...
well anyway i came home after class and tried to teach my family how to salsa la...and it was disasterous...i mean instead of seriously learning they were laughing more...hmmm maybe i am not cut out to be a teacher...
back to my block...feeling nothingness at the moment...just don't know how to describe the feeling...LOST? maybe...
been reading other blogs and it made me feel that what have i been doing in my life so far...i mean...THEY are having the time of their lives...without a care in the world and i feeling out...
just no more anything to go on...
i know,i know that GOD is the fuel for our energy and blah blah...
sigh...
well my stock's out gonna go and replenish...till then...

ignorance...

2005-06-11T01:02:00.000+08:00

sometimes i feel that ignorance is a blessing in disguise...cause the more that we know,the more responsibility we got to bear...and more often then not the responsibility that we bear will always take it's toll and then we'll be to jaded or exhausted to continue...
some of us are often spread too thin when we can really excel if only we concentrate on ONE task and move on from there...
so next question is when do we start to ignore others...or rather when do i start to ignore others...well to me ignoring is a selfish thing but then again it's not always about others...being human gives me the right to be selfish...right?
problem is that i can't...i've tried to...but can't...and that has sometimes gotten me unhappy...when i do something for someone i really wanna do it the best that i can and well i've learned that sometimes your best isn't good enough for the other person...so how do you stop?when do you stop?CAN you stop?
which is better...to not help at all or to stop halfway or better still finished the whole thing and not be happy...
i hate being ignored...and really i've come to the point where i feel what's the point of making others happy and yourself unhappy...well so long to being nice and prim and proper...it's time and this time is all gonna be about me...not more going out of the way for others unless they are worth it la...i do have friends who's always there for me and they are worth more than words can describe...
so ignorance IS bliss...after all...

updates

2005-06-08T03:22:00.000+08:00

well it's been some time since i last blogged...and the usual busy busy busy just sounds like a lame excuse...cause i too believe that if you want something done it'll BE DONE...
so here's a summary of what's happened in the last few weeks...
my mum's back from australia after being away for 2 months...yay...don't need to do my laundry and eat out anymore...hehehe....
learned that looks can be deceiving as my car broke down again and this time i found out that the fancy workshop that i engaged didn't do a fancy repair...which costs me another grand...sigh...on a brighter note is that i also found a mechanic who's dependable and reasonable...and guarantees his work...
i regretted not being able to spend time with some one close back from overseas... my church camp ended last sunday and i wasn't there...sigh...well you can't be everywhere everytime...and it seems that this is the camp which the speaker spoke and EVERYONE listened...f@#$ing incredible right...
well that's as far as my memory can remember...la...
and it's getting late till then...

an unforgettable night...

2005-05-27T02:23:00.001+08:00

i think most of soccer fans would have watched the match between AC Milan and Liverpool either live or not...and if not would have heard about the result from the radio or other forms of media...like it or not...LIVERPOOL ARE THE CHAMPIONS...and i can say that i was there with them...i watched them from start till the penalty shootout...and i must say that at half-time i wanted to turn it off and go to bed...but as you all know...YOU WILL NEVER WALK ALONE...
i couldn't bear to watch the penalty shoot-out cause i think that we aren't the best penalty takers in the game...sigh...so i waited after ten mins before i switch the channels...hahaha...
well CIS eat your heart out...
the manner that they pulled themselves together after the break was amazing...i mean would you believe that from 3 goals down and against 1 of the best teams in the world...what's the word to describe that kind of feeling...so when you're down and out...and things are really not looking too great....hang in there and dig deep...and BELIEVE!

2005-05-16T00:55:00.000+08:00

she's the bride...ain't she a beauty...i used to call her by name but now must call her ah soe...not that she's old but because she's heng tai's wife...hence the ranking...

2005-05-16T00:53:00.000+08:00

wedding on the 14th of may...this is the heng tais...saw that or not ...all looking so cute and adorable...actually got butterflies in our stomach cause we didn't know what the gurls wanted us to perform b4 letting the bride come out of the room...terrible isn't it?...anyway...nothing happened cause he...my friend eric...got it easy...no need to sing or act out funny actions...just plan old ang pow...

feeling a bit nostalgic...

2005-05-13T01:15:00.000+08:00

i have a friend who's getting married this weekend...and thinking about the times we had together when we were younger...growing up in the same church and all just got me feeling mushy la...growing in a church and watching others grow is a joy cause...really...you get to see the transformation and though it does make you feel old at times...it also make you happy to see that God has blessed them and has kept them by His side and still is blessing and keeping them near to Him...
mind you the woman that he's marrying is 1 of the most soft spoken,kind hearted and compassionate ladies that i know and i thank God that He has blessed them with 1 another...and though it is a big step...marrying...i can honestly say that God will continue to bless and watch over them...
it has been a joy to know this brother of mine...though we had our differences(don't everybody)...we also had good times while lunching and skipping work to catch a movie...honestly how many would do that...mind you...it was a spur of a moment knid of thing...
and it is this small little stuffs that binds us...not just him and me but to others...i know i have many good and also bad times with my closest friends...and it is the whole package la...we can't choose and i can honestly say that i wouldn't want any other way...thru this experiences we bond and grow and though we sometimes hate each others guts...thru thick and thin...we all become stronger...
so as i enjoy the sheer pleasure of driving the couple in a S-CLASS MERC...i have got 1 thing more to add...TRUE FRIENDSHIP CONSIST NOT IN THE MULTITUDE OF FRIENDS,BUT IN THEIR WORTH AND VALUE...(ben jonson)

You're only young once; you can be immature forever...

2005-05-11T01:30:00.000+08:00

i came across this tagline and i was thinking...how many times have we used or others used the phrase "you're only young once" or "i'm always young at heart"...
do we sometimes use the line as an excuse to be immature in our actions or words...well i for 1 can say that i have done it...using the line as an excuse to act out of my age...they say that as we aged we sin less cause as we grow older we choose sinning more carefully...
how true is that...when i was in my teens...i could get away with trouble cause i was still young...but now every single thing that we do will always be under the microscope even if it's something good...
people might question your motives or methods...
so do we stop or continue without a care cause you know...you can never please everybody...some jealous cause you're cuter...some cause you're smarter and some just plain don't like your pretty face...sigh...sometimes i just feel like giving them a piece of my mind and then i remember that if i do then there's nothing left...lame right...anyway...
i have a right to choose and even if sometimes the actions or words may seem immature to some...well too !@#$%^& bad...
sorry...just got a bit emotional there...cause I'M SICK AND TIRED OF PEOPLE TELLING ME HOW TO RUN MY LIFE WHEN THEY THEMSELVES CAN'T RUN THEIRS...ironic isn't it...
so the next time some 1 sabos you when your doing something which to them is immature...you can tell them to stick it where it !@#$%^&* belongs...thank you.

big game tonight...

2005-05-08T22:35:00.000+08:00

big game tonight between liverpool and arsenal...both teams fighting for champions league football next season...though liverpool's chances are very very slim...but we can always give it a go...
anyone who thinks that we've thrown the towel got another thing coming...YOU WILL NEVER WALK ALONE...
to all the HARDCORE REDS...(and i don't mean in the porno sense) LIVERPOOL ROCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

insensitive people...but sensitive me...

2005-05-08T14:43:00.000+08:00

what do you do when someone slides into the parking spot that you've been waiting patiently for about 10 mins...and after confronting them you just have to let them have it cause out of sympathy...the driver's limped in a leg and his whole family including old people with him...and it's just you alone...some of you may think that...SO WHAT! it's my spot...well...i do to but i guess at the given time i felt that i had to give in...
it's mother's day and i'm here blogging not spending time with my mum...well she's not around and she's probably enjoying herself in australia...going to call her later though...at the very least...i feel alone la...don't know why...could it be that i DO miss mum?sigh...i don't know la...maybe it's cause the household chores are not done and my laundry is in a mess...and also having a sister who is busier than auditors don't help...honestly i don't know what's keeping her busy...
apart from that...the last month has been bearable la but i don't think i can stand another 2 months...yeah yeah some may say that when mama's around don't appreciate now not here suffer la...
sorry la...kena side-tracked...well as i was saying the bloke's family was with him...and i deduce that he was taking them out to celebrate mother's day...though i tak puas hati...but i felt that i wouldn't want the old lady to go back into the car and spend another 15mins circling the block...
so...because i can't celebrate with my mum today...i guess i wanted him to be able to without any scene...trust i could if i wanted to...so guys...sometimes when people aren't sensitive...we can

WONG AH WAH CHICKEN WINGS...

2005-05-07T01:05:00.000+08:00

had chic wings at this place called wong ah wah...and it was an experience worth mentioning...i was thinking of a venue to go since it was a holiday the next day and i thought of taking my girlfriend out to a place outside of our regular makan spot...so there i was calling up friends to ask for good eating spots and directions to go too...after much contemplation i decided to check this place up...
well the service was prompt...the ordering la...and my chic wings came earlier than my drinks... how about that...normally the drinks comes 1st...but anyway...we ordered wings and fried see-ham and veg...the truth is that the wings were so so but the see-ham...wah lau...great man...and also my friend suggested that the big prawn(1 prawn only cost rm24) dish is good and also the ginger fish...
so i skipped the prawn cause i no lover and went for the fish...err...errmmm...it was too gingerly for my taste...well there were other orders but we couldn't eat anymore...so maybe this coming wesak holiday we'll go and try other dishes...so till then...

to defend or not to defend...

2005-04-29T04:30:00.000+08:00

well...ummm...how to start...hmmm...ok...this should do it...
fine...
was playing futsal in church just now...last night and got into an argument that almost got out of hand...which got me thinking...when do we as christians draw the line...when do we defend ourselves...do we wait for backup or do we bore them to death with bible readings or do we simply just grit our teeth and take it...or...just give it back as good as you got it...
i am very passionate about the game and i would say that i always give my all whenever i play and i was told by a friend during supper that...that puts pressure on my team-mates...sigh probably true...but aren't you supposedly to give your best...well the story is that i was arrogant and insensitive to the other team players and that riled up one of the players...who challenged me la... the funny thing is...the boy pushes me twice in the chest...i mean come on la...it's not like i've got breasts or anything...and started using foul language and threats...
so what would YOU do if in my shoes...
told my sister and guess what...she called me a wimp...and that i should have called her and she would have whoop his ass...honestly...a part of me really wanted to swing at him and mind you it wasn't my hips...
i was also called a lousy christian...man i know that for a fact la...that's why i need Jesus...so can anyone please please tell me what could have been done...
why are some people so stupid to pick fights in other people's turf...i mean it's kinda dumb right...
it's 4:30 am and i still can't believe that i let the fellow walk away...early 20s(maybe late teens)
i'm telling you that my sis is gonna bug me for the next couple of days...sigh
so defend or not to defend...

copa iba...

2005-04-23T01:52:00.000+08:00

well...another 4 hours to go b4 i hafta leave for copa iba...unearthly time right...well it seems that we need to be there by 7:30 am hence the time to be in church so we can leave in a bus by 6:15...
well after 2 months of training this is it...yup the time has finally come to stand up and be counted..
while i'm writing this...the whole family is watching braveheart...how poetic...
well i need to go and get some rest...will update on the copa iba later...zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

waiting for chicken rice...

2005-04-22T00:52:00.000+08:00

have you ever waited 30 mins for a plate of chicken rice and mind you the stall selling it isn't big...
well...i did and it really pissed me off...cause 1stly...i gave up my table for a family...i was sitting alone la...and i ORDERED 1st!!!sigh...could it be that a single order is less lucrative...i mean if the food is good then imagine the free publicity you will get...and that would be good for business... i had to asked him whether my order was coming cause then i can go and eat somewhere else and never to return to this dreaded place...and he said yes...cause his face told me that I came 1st...so hurriedly my plate of chicken rice came and let me tell you that i think he took the chicken out a tad too early cause i can see that it wasn't fully cooked...sigh...eat only la...what can do...hungry la!
well...so much for my lunch-capade...
i guess that we DO wait for"somethings" in life if we thought that it was good...but why wait...isn't the only thing that guarantees goodness in our lives-JESUS...preachy right...i don't know what hit me...it's just that i feel that we wait and wait to share about Jesus...it should be-WE CAN'T WAIT TO SHARE ABOUT JESUS...and i'll be the 1st to admit that statement...guilty as charged...so next question is...what am i doing about it...well i guess i will start by being a bit more Christlike...in actions cause IT DOES speak louder than words...

so...what are YOU waiting for...

the going gets tough...

2005-04-20T03:09:00.000+08:00

here i am...the time is 3am plus...and i am wondering about this saturday...THE COPA IBA...
the place is RRI sungai buloh(aroung there la)...there are 3 soccer teams this year...btw last year we lost all our games...the highlight being that we lost 1 nil to the group champs which forced them out...really you should have seen the happiness on the players' faces...it was really funny...but this year's gameplan is to win at least 1 game...that WAS the plan but i felt that we can set the bar higher..by winning ALL OUR GAMES...
i was reading a blog of 1 of the players...and i agree with him that the juniors have improved tremendously...but i'm trying to keep their head on the ground cause if they're satisfied now...then there would not be anymore progress later...so still have to be strict...but they are fast learners...
thinking of copa iba brings back memories of when i used to play...mind you it was the 1st copa iba and it was really funny when they imposed certain rules...and to adapt to it was a major disaster...
so hopefully we'll enjoy ourselves on saturday...really i intend to...i am not thinking about this tournament when we started this coaching thingy...we have a long term plan like being in the state under 19 tournaments and such...
so when the going gets tough...the going gets tough la...what to do...hehehehe

good weekend...

2005-04-19T02:43:00.000+08:00

yeah!!!...surprisingly...it was a great weekend...managed to have a good practice since the match is this saturday...and also the spurs game against liverpool was very good...4 goals were scored and all were great goals...
the team trained well...had a game between the seniors and the juniors...the result was 3 nil to the juniors...watched the vin diesel movie and it was watchable la...
my friend with the serious problem has managed to solve it(with God's intervention)and i'm very happy that i went to church to worship la...hadn't done that for weeks...
got out a lot of negative stuffs from my system...and also managed 8 hours of sleep on sunday night...

pretty agitated...

2005-04-17T00:32:00.000+08:00

well...i'm really a bit off after watching a soccer match...which for neutrals would say was a pretty good game...except if you're supporting the two teams...sigh...4 goals were scored and they were all pretty good ones...like i said the result could have gone either way...too bad la...for my team...
wanted to go out for a drink...but after reaching home i just didn't feel like it...i felt more comfy with my dog and we were watching the game together gether...was also doing my laundry at the same time...washing machine la...and it's been raining unpredictably that i decided to hang the clothes to dry in the middle of the night...the main reason is cause my mum not around...speaking of her...my aunt just got back from australia and she told us that my mum(God bless her soul) misses us but she misses my dog even more...sigh(gonna kick her later...the dog la) imagine that...
my aunt asked me if i cried silently since mum not around...sigh...what kind of question is that...
me cry?!come on la...come november i'll be...be...be...i'll be too old to cry silently but too young to marry...
well need to get rest cause in the morning got worship...well then...i'm still a bit off about the match result but i guess i can sleep better now...

it's been too long...

2005-04-16T00:30:00.000+08:00

the past week has been hectic for me...
1stly...my boss went for a holiday...leaving me with a lot more work...some of you who know me might think i don't even work...well i do!!!
2ndly...the soccer tournament is like in a week's time...and the boys have a lot more to improve... not that they haven't but there's always room for improvement right?and sunday's practice wasn't great but the juniors held the seniors to a nil nil draw...1 of the juniors said that the result meant that they won...hehehe...
3rdly...i've this friend who's close to me and she's at a crossroad which i can't really help and i feel useless cause there's nothing i can do and it's killing me...and it's not even her fault...
4thly...my favourite soccer team went thru to the semis...hurrah...i don't think anybody gave them a chance but they are in the semis...say what you want...loser!!!!
5thly...when i was at work just now my lorry brokedown and i was held up at work by almost 2 hours...wanted to go out with friends but here i am blogging while on call just in case my lorry breaks down again...
6thly...i've got issues(actually only an issue la) with a friend who i thought understood me but it seems that i'm mistaken...not that i'm pissed but more disappointed...
well that's what happen to me for the past week...come next week i'll be able to blog more and do pray that the practice this sunday will be a fruitful one...

mahjong!!!

2005-04-04T01:56:00.000+08:00

mahjong...a brilliant game invented...and i think it was a chinese cause i see that a lot of chinese enjoy the game...old or young,male or female also not a problem...used to be 4 to start now...2 also can...but i would say that the best the three 'ka' mahjong...and you can go on and on and on...
the rules...well i think besides the few known rules...the rest are defined by the place or family... it's quite interesting and also very addictive...and the best part of it all is that money is very inportant besides the tiles and dice...and that also has different levels...like how much is a point worth...the cheapest that i know is 5cents...the most that i've seen played is rm1...not a lot to some but that's just 1 point...the minimum to game is 5 points and it could be doubled or tripled or more...
then there's the time factor...you can play for hours and not eat or drink...maybe the occasional getting to get rid of the 'suay' or toilet break...i played with a grand aunt who was on her own while my sister swapped places with my cousin and me with my girlfriend after a period of time and during break time we slept and when it's our time we got up and to resume...lo and behold...she's still there...wah lau...i think that companies should incorporate this game cause then the workers don't need to rest and thus(maybe)productivity would increase...
now there's also the noise factor...if you're not a fan then more likely you can't stand the noises...
noises emitted not only from the tiles but the 'pungs' and the 'kai pai' and the 'sek' and maybe 'chi mo'...especially when it's middle of the night and you have to work in the morning...you probably wanna murder the players and throw the set(s) away...
i read that medically it's good exercise for the brain...is it true well...my mum swears by it and i guess practically the rest of the mahjong crazed people do too...well blessing or curse...it's up to the individual...oh by the way...i am a mahjong freak too...

up or half...

2005-04-03T12:55:00.000+08:00

sigh...that's what you will hear when you're out with old friends and even new ones...out DRINKING!that's exactly what i did...up AND half...hehehe
trying to remember events after that has proved that memory loss do happens and if you ever wanna get out of sticky situations just say that you were drunk and can't remember a single thing...trust me it works...but you can only use it once a year...so use it wisely...
that was on friday...i've checked with some of the guys and it seems that beside talking too loud and making a nuisance out of myself...i was pretty steady...so i'll probably go again this friday... anyone interested?

2005-04-01T01:45:00.000+08:00

that's me la

waiting for time to pass...

2005-03-31T05:13:00.000+08:00

i'm waiting for time to pass cause i'll be sending my mum to the airport later...yup...the day has finally come...my mum is running away from home and her responsibility to enjoy herslelf and also to take care of my aunt's baby for 3 months...how uncool is that...i mean what about my laundry and my meals...i also need someone to do them you know...my usually ironed clothes will now not be there...sigh welcome to my life...
well i don't wanna sound sissy or anything but i think i miss my mum already...and i think that in a contradicting way i am glad to see her go cause she's never been out...on the other i'm gonna miss her nagging and though it's very unbearable ...i kinda grew on it...sigh better not let my mum read this cause then the 'char siew' quote will become useless...WHAT?!you don't know...parents sometimes say giving birth to a piece of 'char siew' is better than you...
thinking about this makes me really sad cause i didn't really grew up with my mum...out of 30+years...collectively i stayed like...minus the the last 3 consecutive years...about 6 years...
yup...6 out of 27+years...and no i've been to juvenile school...my mum,God bless her soul wasn't really able to care for me when we were younger...ohh...my sister...i've a sister...though i think sometimes she's adopted...err...or i was...anyway...for those who knows me and my mum will tell you that she's a good if not a great cook...have you tried her laksa?no...sigh...too bad then...how about her indian mee goreng...or her hokkien mee...wah lau...am thinking about it now...guess the next time would be at least 3 months away...
i thank God that she's leaving cause now i know that deep down though i don't show it... especially to my mum that she's important lar...to me...and i guess i need to tell her that...before she leaves...maybe then she'll cancel and my maid's back?!?hehehe...i had the priviledge of reading my friend's sms from her mum and it touched me cause it touched me lar...i realized that thru disagreements and very vocal-led arguments...my mum is trying her human best for me...and you don't really see that and sometimes some of us don't see that at all...don't you think it's sad...
of course we compare mums...but is it fair...yes i know...my mum compared ME with other KIDS terrible isn't it...i mean comparing me with OTHERS?!!!!what's there TO compare...i perfect what...maybe a bit short tempered...a bit sarcastic...a bit ugly...a bit selfish...a bit rude...take that all away and i'm like an angel...ok ok la...angel a bit farfetched...hmmm...maybe a little short of being an angel...but i can honestly tell you that my mum wouldn't want it any other way...minus of the flaws i mentioned...i guess me too...i love my mum the way she is except for certain traits but other than that she's perfect...
a little boy went to buy clothes for his mum and when asked for her size,he didn't kow but he told the sales lady that she's perfect...a few days later...his mum came by the store to change cause the perfect size turned up to be a few sizes too small...
half an hour more to go...i hope that when you see your mum later just give her big hug and plant a kiss on her cheeks and do tell her that you appreciate her cause only you and God knows and she needs to know and who knows...things may go your way...i'm doing it...what are you waiting for...

got me a bracelet...

2005-03-30T15:52:00.000+08:00

yup...i've got me a bracelet...a simple stainless steel with my name on it...mind you it's not a sissy thing but more of friends affirming their friendship...ok ok ok... probably you would say that it's a teenager thingy but HELLO...who gives a s*%$ what you think...
well...sorry for being rude...it's just(sniff sniff)i can't stand people labeling me just cause i'm wearing a bracelet and starts calling me gay...ok maybe i do have certain tendencies but i'm not gay...
the thing that sets us apart from others is that certain individuals come together cause they enjoy each other's company and thru out the years have this bond and trust that binds this particular group and let me tell you that it's not being exclusive or anything but just common interest and opinions(we do have very differing ideas at times)...we do have other groups of friends that we hold dear to our heart but the thing that binds us differs...some we party...some we go dance class...some we go for orang asli trips...some just talking...some when we need a shoulder to cry on...some when we are in trouble... some when we're getting married...some when you need advice....and last...some when you are needed...
so which brings me to another point...what's the difference between true friends good friends best friends boyfriend girlfriend and just friends...i don't really understand some of it...i've alwwwways thought that true and best friend and good friends are the same or is there a level where one graduates to...hmmm...food for thought...
by the way i have this friend who was feeding cheezels when i was driving and feeding me with water cause my hands were on the steering wheel(obviously)...sigh...at that point i felt LOVED...yup...i really did...here i was driving and he was feeding...how more romantic can you get...but of course when he started his antics like pulling the cheezels away from my mouth when i tried to bite it...i felt like slapping him till he begs for mercy and then i'll continue slapping him some more...muahahahahaha
enuff of kinky stuffs...so as you all should know by now...my mind wanders off pretty fast...anyway...once again...I GOT ME A BRACELET...

pain...

2005-03-30T02:46:00.000+08:00

ever felt that the pain so unbearable that you just wanns smash yourself against something and get it all over with...well that's exactly how i feel now...in fact the pain in my head has become so intense that i'm considering a jab for it...
as i grit thru the PAIN...i'm thinking ...what is the cause of it...is it just because i got caught in the rain and didn't dry my head properly or...is it my body telling me that it's time for a body service...ie...medical check-up...thai massage...booster jab...i don't really know...i'm a butcher...not a doctor...
well so much for the physical side of it...what about emotional pain...does it hurt as bad or it's worst...well...i figured that it's worst cause we're hurting inside where we can't take anything for it except maybe sleeping pills or drugs that will calm you down...anyway that's only temporal...what about a long term cure...and will it really cure what's hurting you inside...hmmm...still experiencing the pain in my head and it's not getting better...
how does one end it all...by knocking yourself out or to some extreme by taking your life...
well i can't really answer that well cause I'M STILL IN PAIN and half my mind is telling me to pengsan la...by using the wall...
so much for trying to outdo the pain threshold...sigh...wish i was a woman now...they say that women can stand pain...well then...i think i should sleep or at least try to sleep cause it always go away in the morning...so once again...if your pain won't go away...friday night at poppy...

mind-ful of things...

2005-03-28T16:49:00.000+08:00

my mind is full of things today...1stly cause it's my mum's birthday...and also the fact that she's leaving for australia for 3 months is another thing...yesterday's soccer practice was not what it could be...a good practice...sigh...couple that with tiredness from driving to and fro for 5-6 hours... and news that 1 of my closest friend is getting stressed out...my my god-sis contracted denggi...
sigh...sigh...and triple sigh...i guess i am not alone when i say that our minds are ALWAYS filled with a lot of things...and we act or react to them...at times we are nice and polite...at times the total opposite...so who's to blame when we're such a pain...i'm sure everyone wants to be happy and stress-less everytime but how do you control your emotions and your behaviour...
well...join the club...i have no answer...and sure people will quote you verses that will and should help you...but then again we ALL have head knowledge...we KNOW what to do...but can't help it la...
so if anyone of you has figured it out please...share la cause God knows WE ALL NEED IT...
for those who are going thru a hard time and can't help it...I'M WITH YOU(sing to the tune of avril's song)...last but not least...i would like to re-mind you that GOD knows everything and HE WILL carry you thru...so hang in there my fellow comrades...all is not lost and if still feeling down...friday night...POPPY!!!

when is enough...enough

2005-03-26T13:13:00.000+08:00

question...when is enough...enough?!
hmmm....i think that it's true for most of us...it could be anything...like at work helping colleagues out when it's not your problem...how far do you go? when do you stop? to what extend do you assist? at home...household chores...when will you stop doing it...especially when your siblings don't seem to care whether the garbage has been thrown out or the soiled dishes that needs to be washed...i think you get the picture...
sometimes being nice is too nice if you get what i mean...i'm not trying to create a hate thing here but i feel that as asians sometimes we are too nice not knowing when to say no...especially if you're a christian la...i'm not generalizing here but hei...i too want to be pampered and love and be treated like an heir of a multi billionaire...so please tell me...when is enough...enough...

weddings and the joys of getting married..

2005-03-26T06:02:00.000+08:00

getting married,being married and staying married would bring you happiness...hmmm...well i don't know...there will be times when you can't stand your spouse and you just realized that you were stone drunk when you agreed to marry him/her...not necessary with alcohol...
my question is...what gives!!!i get pissed when at weddings,especially when you're the usherer ...some people will come and ask the eternal question...WHEN'S YOUR TURN?what la...come in and enjoy the ceremony and stop asking questions like that when you know that the answer would be the 'hehehe soon la soon' or 'nobody yet...how to marry' or 'after you la'...superficial isn't it...
sigh...could it be cause asians have this cultural thing that must marry by 30(for men) and 26(for ladies)...isn't that corny...
well guys...good news...i've got friends who think like i do and it's cool...I AM NOT ALONE...I FEEL YOU...I FEEL YOU...
for those who are married or going to be...God Bless...for those who aren't...clubbing at poppy friday nights...call me...

futsal...passion or obsession

2005-03-25T00:21:00.000+08:00

who in the right frame of mind would speed all the way from RAWANG just to play 10 mins worth of futsal...
sigh...that would be me lar... and mind you... i always tell my boys to warm up for 30 mins and here i am breaking everything that could end my sports playing days due to a ravaged body due to countless of insane tackles due to the inability to match my skills...sigh... ok ok that's what happens to you when you are going to be 31 and everyone starts calling you uncle...