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i'm waiting for time to pass cause i'll be sending my mum to the airport later...yup...the day has finally come...my mum is running away from home and her responsibility to enjoy herslelf and also to take care of my aunt's baby for 3 months...how uncool is that...i mean what about my laundry and my meals...i also need someone to do them you know...my usually ironed clothes will now not be there...sigh welcome to my life... well i don't wanna sound sissy or anything but i think i miss my mum already...and i think that in a contradicting way i am glad to see her go cause she's never been out...on the other i'm gonna miss her nagging and though it's very unbearable ...i kinda grew on it...sigh better not let my mum read this cause then the 'char siew' quote will become useless...WHAT?!you don't know...parents sometimes say giving birth to a piece of 'char siew' is better than you... thinking about this makes me really sad cause i didn't ...

yup...i've got me a bracelet...a simple stainless steel with my name on it...mind you it's not a sissy thing but more of friends affirming their friendship...ok ok ok... probably you would say that it's a teenager thingy but HELLO...who gives a s*%$ what you think... well...sorry for being rude...it's just(sniff sniff)i can't stand people labeling me just cause i'm wearing a bracelet and starts calling me gay...ok maybe i do have certain tendencies but i'm not gay... the thing that sets us apart from others is that certain individuals come together cause they enjoy each other's company and thru out the years have this bond and trust that binds this particular group and let me tell you that it's not being exclusive or anything but just common interest and opinions(we do have very differing ideas at times)...we do have other groups of friends that we hold dear to our heart but the thing that binds us differs...some we party...some we go dance class...s...

ever felt that the pain so unbearable that you just wanns smash yourself against something and get it all over with...well that's exactly how i feel now...in fact the pain in my head has become so intense that i'm considering a jab for it... as i grit thru the PAIN...i'm thinking ...what is the cause of it...is it just because i got caught in the rain and didn't dry my head properly or...is it my body telling me that it's time for a body service...ie...medical check-up...thai massage...booster jab...i don't really know...i'm a butcher...not a doctor... well so much for the physical side of it...what about emotional pain...does it hurt as bad or it's worst...well...i figured that it's worst cause we're hurting inside where we can't take anything for it except maybe sleeping pills or drugs that will calm you down...anyway that's only temporal...what about a long term cure...and will it really cure what's hurting you inside...hmmm...stil...

my mind is full of things today...1stly cause it's my mum's birthday...and also the fact that she's leaving for australia for 3 months is another thing...yesterday's soccer practice was not what it could be...a good practice...sigh...couple that with tiredness from driving to and fro for 5-6 hours... and news that 1 of my closest friend is getting stressed out...my my god-sis contracted denggi... sigh...sigh...and triple sigh...i guess i am not alone when i say that our minds are ALWAYS filled with a lot of things...and we act or react to them...at times we are nice and polite...at times the total opposite...so who's to blame when we're such a pain...i'm sure everyone wants to be happy and stress-less everytime but how do you control your emotions and your behaviour... well...join the club...i have no answer...and sure people will quote you verses that will and should help you...but then again we ALL have head knowledge...we KNOW what to do...but can't h...

question...when is enough...enough?! hmmm....i think that it's true for most of us...it could be anything...like at work helping colleagues out when it's not your problem...how far do you go? when do you stop? to what extend do you assist? at home...household chores...when will you stop doing it...especially when your siblings don't seem to care whether the garbage has been thrown out or the soiled dishes that needs to be washed...i think you get the picture... sometimes being nice is too nice if you get what i mean...i'm not trying to create a hate thing here but i feel that as asians sometimes we are too nice not knowing when to say no...especially if you're a christian la...i'm not generalizing here but hei...i too want to be pampered and love and be treated like an heir of a multi billionaire...so please tell me...when is enough...enough...

getting married,being married and staying married would bring you happiness...hmmm...well i don't know...there will be times when you can't stand your spouse and you just realized that you were stone drunk when you agreed to marry him/her...not necessary with alcohol... my question is...what gives!!!i get pissed when at weddings,especially when you're the usherer ...some people will come and ask the eternal question... WHEN'S YOUR TURN? what la...come in and enjoy the ceremony and stop asking questions like that when you know that the answer would be the 'hehehe soon la soon' or 'nobody yet...how to marry' or 'after you la'...superficial isn't it... sigh...could it be cause asians have this cultural thing that must marry by 30(for men) and 26(for ladies)...isn't that corny... well guys...good news...i've got friends who think like i do and it's cool... I AM NOT ALONE ...I FEEL YOU...I FEEL YOU... for those who are married or going...

who in the right frame of mind would speed all the way from RAWANG just to play 10 mins worth of futsal... sigh...that would be me lar... and mind you... i always tell my boys to warm up for 30 mins and here i am breaking everything that could end my sports playing days due to a ravaged body due to countless of insane tackles due to the inability to match my skills...sigh... ok ok that's what happens to you when you are going to be 31 and everyone starts calling you uncle...