cheeyokelo

total volume of music files on my computer.. 1 GIG...(more or less) the last cd that i bought.. RNBHIPHOP...ss2 pasar malam song playing right now.. californian dreams...mamas and the papas five songs i listen to a lot, or that mean a lot to me.. HOOBASTANK: the reason EVANESENCE: immortal EVANESENCE: bring me back to life HIKARU UTADA: first love BRUCE SPRINGSTEEN: secret garden five person to whom i am passing the baton.. weng kit (ffk king) jessica jes min su cheryl lim (cause i know that they'll be reading this)

sigh...am having a mental block for the past week...and nothing seems important anymore...and i mean nothing...don't feel like talking to friends and am gong thru the motions in my life with no real zest... it's like 3:50 pm and i've just finished a bottle of shiraz... think i have lost my focus somewhere... well the most interesting thing that happened to me was last weekend i joined a salsa class(a new one) last saturday...it was cool though my instructor's name is sam aka salsa sam...funny right... well anyway i came home after class and tried to teach my family how to salsa la...and it was disasterous...i mean instead of seriously learning they were laughing more...hmmm maybe i am not cut out to be a teacher... back to my block...feeling nothingness at the moment...just don't know how to describe the feeling...LOST? maybe... been reading other blogs and it made me feel that what have i been doing in my life so far...i mean...THEY are having the time of their liv...

sometimes i feel that ignorance is a blessing in disguise...cause the more that we know,the more responsibility we got to bear...and more often then not the responsibility that we bear will always take it's toll and then we'll be to jaded or exhausted to continue... some of us are often spread too thin when we can really excel if only we concentrate on ONE task and move on from there... so next question is when do we start to ignore others...or rather when do i start to ignore others...well to me ignoring is a selfish thing but then again it's not always about others...being human gives me the right to be selfish...right? problem is that i can't...i've tried to...but can't...and that has sometimes gotten me unhappy...when i do something for someone i really wanna do it the best that i can and well i've learned that sometimes your best isn't good enough for the other person...so how do you stop?when do you stop?CAN you stop? which is better...to not help ...

well it's been some time since i last blogged...and the usual busy busy busy just sounds like a lame excuse...cause i too believe that if you want something done it'll BE DONE... so here's a summary of what's happened in the last few weeks... my mum's back from australia after being away for 2 months...yay...don't need to do my laundry and eat out anymore...hehehe.... learned that looks can be deceiving as my car broke down again and this time i found out that the fancy workshop that i engaged didn't do a fancy repair...which costs me another grand...sigh...on a brighter note is that i also found a mechanic who's dependable and reasonable...and guarantees his work... i regretted not being able to spend time with some one close back from overseas... my church camp ended last sunday and i wasn't there...sigh...well you can't be everywhere everytime...and it seems that this is the camp which the speaker spoke and EVERYONE listened...f@#$ing incredib...